I got my first No today.

I had been preparing myself to hear no, but i tried to remain positive. I was in and out in less than 10 minutes. She said no before she even closed the door. Told me there was rules and regulations that prevented her from doing it on someone like me. i tried to push back and ask her what they were but she danced around it. She told me she’s “practiced in several states and each one has the same rules. no one nation wide will do it.” i told her i would keep searching because someone will do it. she shook my hand and said “good luck”. i just started sobbing. I dont know why. i guess the realization that this will be a very hard and long process and that i really don’t have control over my body. she wouldn’t even listen to my reason or hear me talk. i guess that’s the reality of today

I got my first No today.